"The Lord is gracious and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love. The Lord is good to all, and his mercy is over all that he has made." - Psalm 145:8, 9
I am so grateful for a gracious and merciful Heavenly Father. Especially on days where I fail at those qualities repeatedly. Today was one of those days where every little thing was frustrating. (Thank you, PMS!) And when every little thing is frustrating and you're caring for a 2 1/2 year old, 1 1/2 year old, and 6 month old, it's NOT a good combination! Megan (2 1/2 years) trying to perfect her fake cry every five mintues. Lauren (1 1/2 years) throwing fits. Michael puking nonstop. Megan purposefully upsetting Lauren so Lauren will scream and get in trouble. Lauren screaming. Michael not sleeping. Megan 'mothering' her siblings a little too roughly resulting in three little people crying because they're either hurt or they don't like seeing a sibling hurt, and/or Mommy giving too much comfort-cuddle time to someone else even though they need Mama love, too. Needless to say, I lost it. More than once. A harsh "Stop!" stated, a rough hand grabbing a little arm to get their attention, and most likely quite the unloving look on my face when I confronted each situation with much too little grace.
Father God, please forgive my failures. I want to be like You, but I was a far cry from Your standard today. Please give me mercy, grace, patience, and love for my children, whom I cherish. Please let Your love shine through me so they know Your love, love that can only come from You. Physically, please help me to feel more balanced and calm. You are in control of every aspect of life and I cling to that truth today. Thank you for being gracious and merciful towards me when I clearly don't deserve it. Thank you for being patient with me. You are amazing God!
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