Encouraging Truth: "The Lord is the everlasting God. . . . his understanding is unsearchable." - Isaiah 40:28
Loving Instruction: "Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer." - Romans 12:12
Our Reward: "Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him." - James 1:12
It's been one of those days. You know the kind. The really, really bad ones. The days where you stare blankly at your children eating lunch and wonder what would happen, if anything, if you were to just run. Hop in the car and run. And while you fantasize about driving your empty mini van off into the sunset and never returning, you know you will miss their sticky hugs and wet kisses. But then again, you are so racked with guilt over losing your temper and yelling at them for something as simple as asking a question, maybe you deserve to live a life alone, missing those crazy little people. But you don't run. Instead, you wipe off hands and mouths, you beg your children to go play as you shake out of anger, rage, guilt, and shame while sweeping the crumbs off the floor. As soon as nap time arrives, you collapse onto the floor and check social media, hoping for a notification, a message, an e-mail - anything that shows you still matter to someone, anyone. Nope, no one knows. No one knows how bad your heart hurts, how much you long to be a good wife and mommy, how utterly overwhelming life today has been.
Enter this blog post. My journal. My way of studying scripture. Because surely there is hope and love somewhere. And there is. There is unsearchable understanding in the arms of our Jesus. There is love like we can't explain, forgiveness that we can't comprehend, hope that we are able to grasp.
"Why do you say, O Jacob, and speak, O Israel, "My way is hidden from the Lord, and my right is disregarded by my God"? Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."
- Isaiah 40:27-31
Oh how I can relate to that sort of day. and for the desperate search for the reminder that someone cares. How good it is to have a faithful Father. especially on the days that we are so empty of faith. praying for you today. hopefully we can catch up soon.
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